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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Growing up or growing old?

Today I'm wondering if I will ever grow up or if as the years continue to speed up, if I am destined merely to grow old. At this point in time, I would gladly trade growing old for the prospect of growing up. Don't grown ups have life figured out?
They are wise and compassionate, disciplined and goal oriented. They have made the world a more positive place and have overcome their youthful foolishness. As mothers, they rise with the sun and prepare wonderful meals for their families, their homes are neat and tidy, their laundry scheduled , spot free and appropriately placed. An adult carefully weighs their choices of spending, buying nothing on frivalous impulse or exceeding one's bank account. Their children are well dressed and mannered, happy and creative. One day they will rise up and call their mother blessed.
An adult makes choices based on outcomes, not what feels good at the moment. Whether they are playing, working, reading or praying, they have chosen their activity, not merely slithered into it by default.
Adults have goals and work to achieve them- perhaps they will be an author in which case they discipline themselves to write. Perhaps a teacher, thus taking classes to learn about education. Maybe the goal is to see to it that their children learn music, play sports, take dance lessons, excel in school. Never are they too tired or grumpy to take their children to their lessons- or choose to not sign them up because it's too much effort.
Adults have an organized life. They pay their bills, do their housework, repair their autos on time. They live out their passions and convictions- recycling, energy conservation, organic foods, exercise, family fun, community service, bowling leagues.
What does it say about a person whose primary motivation is fun and convenience? Who neglects duty and shuns personal responsibility? Whose character failings continue from year to year, whose entangling sins remain, whose lack of discipline looms like a familiar specter from year to year?
Ephesians 4:14,15 "that we henceforth be no more children.... but speaking the truth in love may grow up into him which is the head of all things, even Christ."
There's hope yet. I may grow up even as I grow old.